Me vs. Me

The topic is religion and faith. I may sound stupid, offensive etc. So, it's just my opinion. 

I was born in a religion because my parents belong to that religion. Like the 99% of other kids, I was also introduced into the religion and my growing up is much related to the activities as part of that religion. I admit that many of my beautiful childhood memories are also associated with the same. It was all about, “God will hear a child's prayers more than adults” and such. So, till a stage of growing up, it was serious matter for me and I was very much involved. Education, especially science, had some other story to tell through the proofs it offered in subjects such as Physics, biology etc. Then then questions started in mind and increased in number more than the answers anyone could give.

Even when I saw people thanking god for good things in life and attributing the wonders in this world and universe to him/her, nobody gave me explanation for natural disasters and accidents. No one gave any explanation for diseases for which there were no remedies. No one gave any explanation for people fighting in name of religions and killing people who followed other religions, in the name of their respective gods. No one gave any explanations about why god was masculine and there were different rules for men and women. No one knew why they ate only vegetarian food as pat of their religious beliefs. There I started questioning myself and what I learned throughout.

The questions never stopped. If rains are attributed to god, whose responsibility is floods? Don’t tell me it’s due to humans, because it used to flood even where humans didn’t interfere at all. Why is human ingenuity considered below that supernatural power, which no one has ever found anything about? When the best education has taught me enough things to explain things without god, why should I worry about that entity? Why should one fear god if he is the one who does only good? Isn’t the religious faith and other superstitions make our life miserable than anything else, also with many worries about future? When I find out reasons not to believe in god and almost no reason to believe in god, what shall I do?

In education, somewhere down the line I learned about the normal distribution which gives almost correct explanation of the anything random happening in this world. So to take the two extremes of good and bad, there’s always things that happen most of the time, which comprises all the normally good and bad things, and in rare cases extremely good or bad things can happen. Mathematically, it may have limitations, but still it gives more satisfying explanation than any religion’s version about god. And that randomness is acceptable and rational. Won’t this give the proper explanation that the future, even the immediate future is just another random event, and not controlled by some power? There, doesn't the whole astrology sound meaningless?  

Coming back to science, please don’t tell me that science still don’t explain many things. Since science in 2011 is not what it was in 1911, it is just normal that science in 2111 will give you more explanations. That’s the scientific way.  And I find my mind free and my thoughts are free of any baggage, this way. So, are the explanations complex or simple?

Still, there are questions. The thoughts and debates continue….but as someone pointed it rightly, there are myths and some of the active myths are called religions.